Sunday, July 7, 2013

Psalm 91

Five days ago I pinned this to a board on Pinterest. I don't really know why... It wasn't particularly for any spiritual reason, I think I thought it would make a pretty tattoo. :) Anyway, you will see why it is important later. 

So, 99% of the time I am ok. I stay busy. I miss Seth, of course, but I pretty much stay sane. Today was one of the 1% days. Seth got to call, and I was so excited to tell him about my yard sale and how successful it was. He was distracted and anxious at first. He is always watching to make sure others don't do something wrong so they don't all get in trouble. So I didn't feel like he was listening. Then, I told him I sold something of his that I literally did not even know he had until I found it in the attic. He has never used it not mentioned it in the three years we've been married. But apparently, he had "been looking for it the whole time." Lol! So he got upset with me and then I got upset with him, and then it all went downhill. He apologized, and I got over that, but the. Satan started to attack me with anxiety. I really don't normally struggle with that, but I just started to feel so stressed out and overwhelmed and I cried for a good bit of our conversation. Then I got upset because I was ruining the few precious hours we have "together," and it was just bad! We prayed and both started to calm down. Seth then started to tell me about this book he was reading about Psalm 91. It was about how all these men in war situations throughout history had studied and prayed this psalm, and they had been miraculously protected. He said we should read Psalm 91 tonight and focus on it as a family. 

So, our conversation ended up fine, and then Satan started to attack me again, and I've just been upset all night, just overwhelmed and anxious. Worrying about the 100 things I can do nothing about, like my house selling, where we are going to live, what if Seth gets deployed soon, not being prepared for my job, are we going to have enough money, etc.  The one person whom I think can make it better is the one person I can't call! So, I FINALLY decided to read the Bible, Psalm 91, and found this:
1Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.a
2I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
3Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14“Because heb loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.

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